The little guy above is making his appearance in roughly 93 days. 93 DAYS! 3 months and 2 days. That may seem like a lot but let me put it into perspective for you. We have onesies, pajamas, one blanket, three burp rags, 2 sample diapers from our doctor, a boppy pillow a carseat cover and a stroller. You can't even take a baby home from the hospital without a carseat and we don't have one. I don't have a breast pump, a take home outfit, hand mittens so he doesn't scratch his face, or a bed for him to sleep in. AH!
93 days might be a normal amount of time if I didn't also have a 19 credit semester and a 20 hour work week. 93 days might not be so close if I didn't have to go without Kasen three nights a week due to his Argonaut responsibilities. It might not seem so close if I didn't feel like crap everyday because the foods I eat don't seem to agree with my system- Thank you combined IBS and pregnancy. It might also not seem so close if we had an apartment of our own. And it certaintly wouldn't seem so close if we lived closer to home or weren't having a baby six hours away from home and will have to struggle through the first couple days alone -during finals- until Kasen's mom arrives. From Japan. And then we have to make the trek home in what will most likely be snowy and/or icy and/or otherwise terrible road conditions.
Perhaps most of all 93 days wouldn't seem so close if we had a clue as to what we were doing. I'm the oldest of three. But aside from being 12 when my sister was born I don't have much experience with babies. Kasen is the youngest. And I'm pretty sure babies scare him a little. I'll be honest. They scare me too. They cry. And poop. And sleep. And eat. And they are little. Too little. So little that you have to hold their heads. And them. ALL THE TIME.
Have you read new mommy blogs? Most are brutally honest and tell you that you are going to hate life. A lot. They say birth is not fun. And I'm gonna try it without an epidural? And guess what I read about yesterday? The pain doesn't end with the birth of the baby or the placenta delivery. It keeps going. For days. They also tell you about the after affects of not having a menstrual cycle for months and how your bathroom trash might look like something from a bloody gory horror movie. And breastfeeding? It's recommended by every reputable source on the planet - plus it saves money. But wait. It hurts. They say it hurts a lot. And it might not seem like there is any progress being made. But don't worry. If you make it past the first couple weeks you can do anything. Until you get to the six week stage-in which the whole routine you established with your newborn is ruined and sent down the drain. And don't worry- the six week mark is when we will be headed back to Moscow so Kasen can finish his last semester. And I can stay home with a baby. Alone and terrified of any number of catastrophes that can happen.
We haven't even taken a birthing class yet.
(Disclaimer: I know that we will have help and that things won't be as bad as they seem but I get to be terrified anyways. It's my new job. Or so they say.)
If you ever want to go shopping together let me know. I can and will sit on campus with your little man during finals if you need/want. Breast pump do a single not a double and I like my manual better than my electric. Police station has carseats discounted or free for low income families. If he comes too close to finals you may be able to get a dr note to take them later my friend had to do that before...talk to professors now and let them know what's going on. Ummm it does hurt, I never took birthing classes, yes breastfeeding hurts for about 2 weeks until your nipples get used to it and breastfeeding is what causes more cramping but it also helps shrink your uteris faster. YOU WILL BE GREAT, BOTH OF YOU! Let me know if you ever need anything.
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